So i want to be something when i grow up, but i noticed a key trait in myself these past 2 months i've been stuck at my sister house; i always have chances to do something but i never take the initiative.

I don't know when to began anything and i really need to learn how if i want to live my dream.

Also i'm kinda anxious.

I love living and i love my dog.

I just wish i could make more of my life.

It's hard when someone ask you 'where do you see yourself in 10 years' and all you see is a white canvas.

I need to find motivation because that is the one thing i lack in life, i've always been able to say 'fuck it' when it comes to motivation. I think it's because i don't care enough about anything. I'm going to change that.

I'm going to turn that white canvas into a beautiful masterpiece! A work of art.